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September 15, 2025 - "Now it is time to witness the final moments, to discover a circle that forever repeats itself. The end of the beginning or the beginning of the end, I'll leave that decision to you."

Recently, I’ve been listening to “Farewell” by The Berzerker quite a bit. They’re a sick ass industrial death metal band—check them out if you’re into that kinda stuff—but this one specific track stands out from the rest. It’s not quite like the rest of their discography. It’s repetitive and much mellower than anything else I’ve heard from them. It’s also a whopping twenty minutes long.
As much as I love their sound, this song deviates from it, and that happens to make this song my favorite from their discography. It creates strong feelings of persistent doom—that the worst has already come and things won’t be getting better any time soon. It also gives me vague depressive and angry feelings as well.
Songs like these serve great for my creative process. Not many songs make me feel the emotions listed above, let alone at this level, so I prefer to save it for specific circumstances. For example, when I’m creating character lore and need to get into their mindset. I find that I easily create characters that relate to me in some sort of way. I mean, writing about experiences I’ve been through and emotions I’ve felt will typically be easier than writing about something I’ve never experienced. So, I need something that can get me in the mood to start the creative process of thinking up some things that are completely foreign to me.
Only creating characters that are somewhat like me is quite boring. It gets old after a while, but when I’m able to listen to a song that can stir up new emotions in me, it can get me to think about hypotheticals that could happen. Things that I may have never experienced, but things that could realistically happen to me. Using the emotions I get from music, I can create long, in-depth scenarios and ideas for characters that I want to create.
It’s a fun process, but I have unstable emotions, so it’s something I need to be careful with. If I don’t look out for myself, or think too much about my own emotions during this creative process, I can be swept into quite the depressive mood. It’s all about balance, I think.